Life On and Off an Acreage

In-sights into moving from an Acreage back to Town, plus a few things I find of interest.

Two things that horses are scared about:

1. Things that move
2. Things that don't move

February 21, 2010

A Real life Situation

This is a letter written to a good friend of mine (used with permission) from his son. I cleaned up some names and industry, but it shows the level of stress present in the workforce of the 21st century. I remember the days he is writing about from the 70's, 80's and see today that nothing much has changed. The almighty dollar rules both in the board room, the stock market, and people's personal choices. I am not judging. I am simply pointing out that life is still a rat race in the 21st century.

God, wife and family come in that order. He will supply the sustainance.

Matthew 6:24 gives the direction. " No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other,or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon"

I look back on my life, and thank God that He got me through the tribulations of a major mill modernization- $124 million- with 16 hour days for 14 months. It cost me 6 weeks of bed rest afterwards, ie. total burn out. My point of this post is to maybe help someone who reads it to get the priorities right and address the Needs vs Wants that I have written about in previous posts.

So here goes....

Industry curtailments are over, so they say, as they are just able to get enough orders to keep the place running. They fired the #2 guy a couple of weeks ago - he's the fellow who fired 4 of our best people and promoted some of our least capable, but that's just my opinion - damage which will take years to overcome, if ever. Now the president has elected to get involved in the day to day operation of the mill to try and get it running 90%+ efficiency (last year we averaged 87%). He is definitely coming after maintenance, questioning everything we do, wanting weekly feedback and repeatedly implying that we won't be getting more tradesmen until he sees better utilization from existing numbers (working tradesmen now down to 105, it was 180 when I started 8 years ago). For me, things haven't been great, which is nothing new. The week you left for Cuba had to be a low in my career - my area had a few high profile failures and I was on my own to deal with them (my partner was off). Ultimately, I ended up going some 37 hours without sleep before finally getting some prescription sleeping pills to turn my whirling mind off long enough to fall asleep. Now I'm seeing a shrink to help cope with my stress. Basically, when things are going bad at work, I am unable to shut it off and go to sleep at night. Instead, I toss and turn, worrying about all the things I need to do for the next day and fear all the things that may go wrong (and 9 times out of 10, they do not). This type of sleepless nights started about 2 years ago but are getting much more frequent and severe and bring with them extra strains within the family and weight loss / poor appetite. To me, it’s all mental and I just need to keep reminding myself that I can only do so much and there is other help out there which I need to tap into when things are breaking down all around me. I'm made it through tough times at work before and as such, I am confused as to why my confidence level is so low and why this level of worrying has increased so much as of late. The good news is that the boss and wife are incredibly supportive and the shrink says that I am doing all the right things in terms of recognizing what triggers stress and the things I am doing to try and deal with it (talking to co-workers, keeping lists by the bedside, recognizing when I need to step away and ask for help rather than try to pull an all-nighter at the mill trying to resolve something, etc). I have it so good in all aspects of life - great family, great job, and great area to live - which I must keep reminding myself when I get so depressed and wish I could just walk away from responsibility and drive a forklift in a warehouse for $15 an hour. My wife and I talk about options but really, without accepting a serious life adjustment and downsizing material and life expectations, quitting a $100K per year job and taking on 2 jobs that might pull in half this amount combined does not sound that appealing. I keep thinking what my supplier friend said to me some 2 years ago - suck it up and do what is right for the family. In my opinion, he is right, and when I think of the struggles that you two endured during your lives, it makes me feel pretty crappy that I complain at all. Things will get better - I will just need to work at it."

Needless to say, I have been praying that this fellow can find peace and that his family will be supportive. I also am praying for the Lord to intervene in this situation.

My two sons are also facing similar stress levels. From my experience, if it doesn't kill you, it will harden you to any situation that may come along in the future. I know that for me, had I been a christian at the time of my tribulations, I would have had a higher Mentor in my corner.

Any of you experiencing this? The recession is rough, but at what point is enough, enough?

3 comments:

Gregg said...

This recession has definetly affected myself and my family. I was laid off August 21, 2009 and have not been able to find a job. Our county has the highest unemployment in the state and our state has high numbes also. I have been looking outside of the state for work. Feb will be the first time we havn't been able to make ends meet since August, yet we are trusting the Lord for His provision.

Texan said...

I think the recession has affected everyone either directly or indirectly. How could it not.
Even if its just indirectly with the cost of everything going up so much over the last few years...prices all jumped because gasoline went up.. so oh ya that semi truck load of 9000 cans of black eyed peas needed to more than double each can in price? mmm I am not sure I buy that!

Oh and utiliies... they all went up that same gasoline price increase caused this as well..funny gas has not been nearly 4.00 a gallon for how long now? and yet have we seen any of the prices that jumped so fast come down as fast? ahem no! Still paying that more than doubled price on that can of peas and still paying the rate hikes the utilities took!

So even if people have held on to their jobs the increase in the cost of living has been big, and if you were already living pay check to pay check.. We for one do not...but sadly many do.

This is a big topic with a lot of legs to it!!

Ruralrose said...

I am now free to be a slave to nature, thank God. It was poverty that turned us into farmers and saved our lives. How can anyone afford to eat when bread is almost $5 a loaf. Great post, peace for all